Don't Give Up

I have been missing for a while because I have been going through a lot with my home situation and the health and needs of my two boys. I know those who have been following my blog have been wondering what is happening. To be honest things have been very hard and heavy on my shoulders. Lj has started his speech therapy. HE also has been seeing two Occupational Therapists. One for his eating sensory issues and the other for his developmental issues. He goes to speech and occupational therapy once a week every week. I have also been advised to see a Neurologist because his occupational therapist believes he has Sensory Processing disorder. Lj still does not sleep throughout the night and has been sleeping with an Actigraphy Watch. This watch records his movement when sleeping and how many time he wakes up through the night.

Lj has been progressing with his speech therapist but he still does not use words for communication. It makes it hard for me to understand what he needs, what he wants and what is wrong. He has been suffering with chronic ear infections and he seems to get sick out of the blue for no reason. He stays home and doesn't go to daycare but seems to always have a congested cough, sinus congestion and what sounds like a sore throat. Just to think he can't describe what he feels so he screams and cries. He has also progressed with  developmental occupational therapy but we aren't doing to well with the eating portion. He still will not eat textured foods. If it feels funny he won't eat it. This bring about weight issues as well as difficulties in finding what he will eat. It has been so hard on me as a mom but I'm not going to give up.

Andre is done with school right now but I had a meeting for him to have adjustments made to his 504 plan for 5th grade. He is ready for the summer and his Generalized Anxiety has calmed down a bit. His ADHD/ADD symptoms are more prominent now. So testing is coming up over the summer for him.

I still have been getting turned down left and right for employment. I have applied for jobs that doesn't even have anything to do with my certification and have been turned down. I have had nights where I have felt defeated, but I look over at my sleeping preemie in the crib and say go to sleep so you can try again tomorrow. I hug Andre and say he deserves to see me happy and not worry so much about me and the home situations. Through my faith I have been able to get the next morning and try again. I have been able to mask what is taring me up on the inside.So if anyone reading this blog post is going through a rough patch have faith that you can get up tomorrow and try again. Don't Give Up!!